FOUND TRUE LOVE

Friday, June 30, 2006

i happen to be very irritated right now...

it's 7... way past 5 plus 6... definitely way past. and it's not as if u went home to bathe and change or smth... i have no idea where u are... and u are so terribly uncontactable...

so right... keep me waiting...

cuz it's making me really irritated with you...

always monsteroo 18:58

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Sue, the first color you chose reveals that you're feeling Stubborn today.

For centuries, colors have been known for their energizing, calming and empowering qualities. In schools of psychology, a leading color theory suggests that your color preferences can also indicate what's on your subconscious mind. From your choices, here's what we found out about you. Like other people who choose Black first, you are not easily swayed and you hold your ground until you get your way. The fact that you chose Black first also indicates that others probably see you as a powerful force to be reckoned with.

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Sue, when talking to your partner, you're a Diplomat.

This means that you tend to be a cooperative partner with first-rate listening and negotiation skills. Above all, you seem to try to keep the lines of communication open between you and your significant other. In your mind, it's usually far better to talk about problems as they arise rather than sweep them under the rug. For you to really feel connected to your special someone, it's important that they hear and understand you. Ordinarily, you'll return this courtesy tenfold by paying close attention to your partner's perspective.

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im bored...

always monsteroo 00:55

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Thursday, June 29, 2006

heh... im a happy gal... reali i am. yeps...

today was really a fun-filled day... with lotsa laughter and crappy fun things i dun think we wld want anybody to see us doing... haha! basically cuz it's embarassing... but gosh... we are a weird couple... doin dumb weird things all the time.

met cus at about one plus today... ate at bedok with my own-made popiah... haha! it was quite funny... cuz... we ended up eatin the liao inside the popiah without the skin actually. haha! yea... our intention was to go down to JB actually... but his passport not within 6 months validity... so ya... trip postponed... haha! so in the end we hung arnd at bedok awhile... went to spore pools to check out odds and collect the past winnings... den we headed down to bugis. haha! bugis was all shoppin and shoppin... lotsa stuff i bought. and i love every single one of the stuff i bought. cus bought himself a pair of jeans... but needed alteration so cldnt get it today. haha! i bought like... 4 tops and one jacket... goodness me... im actually terribly in love with all of them. esp my jacket which is black with gold patterns... NICENESS at its max. haha!

yeps yeps... den walked at bugis street... walked quite a fair bit... den it was dinner at long john's... super super yummy yummy! haha! happy gal i am... haha! den after long john's... back to bugis junction to walk somemore... and yeps...

the great stop at nouveau the silver shop.... haha! finally got our couple rings from there. think they're reali nice... it's like if we join our rings together then the engravings actually show a heart kinda thing? and with engravings inside... niceness la... haha! and i love the tone and colour of the rings... it has a mix of the shiny look and the oxidised look... it's nice... nice mix... i love it...

it's the ring ill wear for life... yeps...

but we've yet to get our couple charm bracelets... haha! got the pendents to put on it oredi... but havent got the bracelets yet. bah... betta get down to buyin them soon. the problem with us is that we're actually far far far too lazy to get away from 2km of bedok... today was our first day out of the bedok area in a long long time... haha! but we had fun... lotsa fun!

and manz... i reali wanna get the soccer stuff... jerseys... balls... jackets... bah! i love the world cup...

always monsteroo 23:27

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Sue, your eyes say you're Sincerely Sweet

Kind and genuine, you're the sort of gal who's always looking out for others and being a great friend. You have a big heart and can't help but open it up to those you're close with. When you're that pretty on the inside, you can't help but be beautiful on the outside, too.
When it comes to makeup, you like to keep things light and low-key. But that doesn't mean you don't enjoy getting dolled up on special occasions. And when you do, we'd guess you only add to your already sparkling and sweet self. You glow girl!

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just took this test... haha! it's interesting what the results tell... :D

always monsteroo 00:14

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

and so my birthday this year has been the most eventful and meaningful one so far...

well, think a 19 year old gal... think her birthday, with her boyfriend... and wad comes to mind? the cake... the roses... the sweet nothings... the kisses, hugs and fisses... the -in your own world- mood... possible candlelights...

well, my birthday was all of that... there was the wait outside the room... the preperations i could hear coming from inside the room... the blindfolding... the anticipation and excitement charging the air... the candles everywhere... the favourite cake... the heart-shaped balloons all around... the bouquet of roses on the bed... (my first one in all 19 years that is)... the happy birthday song... the hugs... yes... my birthday was all that...

and my birthday was more...

there were the imperfections... the reality checks... the truth... the tears...

but the best birthday present i got this time are not the material things... but the hope that our love will only be stronger than ever...

it definitely isn't easy to forgive... it isn't easy to forget... scars are like fissures in the earth's surface... almost impossible to patch back. but once patched they're as strong as anything can be...

that will be the case for us... will it? or will it not?

whatever it is... it has been the most eventful birthday for me...

thank you to all who have wished me happy birthday... thank you Jamie for comin down to pass me my presents... i love them... thank you everyone who has made my birthday meaningful to me... most of all - thank you marcus...

always monsteroo 23:08

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Friday, June 23, 2006

phoneless makes me feel disabled... haha! well... i left my phone in marcus' pocket n forgot to take it back... so yah... that's where my phone went. haha!

so both italy and ghana has done me proud... won back some money from there. hopefully brazil and australia does me proud later manz. argh... i cant stand bein on the negative... especially by so much... sucks manz... maybe and hopefully marcus' double up theory works sia...

so... it has still been the same kinda life for me... cept ive been workin abit these few days yea. went down to aunty faith's place to photocopy stuff. yea... still enjoyin every moment of it though... haha!

ARGH!!! got like 4 ulcers in my mouth now la. goodness gracious me... damn damn painful la can? it's not as if ive been drinkin very little water... nor have i been feastin on chocolates like nobody's business right? irritating... and they're strategically located to give me maximum pain. asshole ulcers...

haha! today i had to teach marcus continuous random variables... gosh... i almost cldnt do it. i dunno how im gonna help him with normal, sampling, estimation and numerical methods manz... i hope i can do it. will go study up abit first...

tomolo mornin got work... den after that going down to meet marcus and his mum at the Eurasian club there for lunch at about 1.30... heh! after that i swear im gonna go down to marcus' place and pack his room up... clear all the notes and organise them abit. it's like a notes junkyard in there manz... haha! he'll appreciate it i noe... :D

yea yea... so i guess that's it for now... i reali feel damn handicapped without my handphone... bah! alrites... tk care everybody...

and drink lotsa water cuz ulcers suck! *cringe*

p/s: i want jerseys... i want the england, portugal, japan and germany ones... they're so damn nice...

always monsteroo 01:17

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Monday, June 19, 2006

sleep. 38. hawker centre. occasional coffee shop. weird meal times. macs. laptop. soccer. odds. study. soccer. match. taxi. probable 38. soccer. match. sleep.

sleep. 38. hawker. occasional coffee shop. weird meal times. macs. laptop. soccer. odds. study. soccer. match. taxi. probable 38. soccer. match. sleep.

sleep. 38. hawker. occasional coffee shop. weird meal times. macs. laptop. soccer. odds. study. soccer. match. taxi. probable 38. soccer. match. sleep.

and now im sitting at macs... waiting for the first soccer match to start... togo v switzerland... bahs... hopefully i win money. give me some excitement and thrill to enter in the list of daily activities...

im bored...

ive got a feelin that day will come and just pass like it never existed...

turning 19 mundanely...

always monsteroo 20:03

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Sunday, June 18, 2006

and so it has been quite a fulfilling wknd indeed... yeps...

yesterday after slackin awhile at cus's place, we went down to Tampines Mall. there we shopped alot... he bought alot of clothes for me... for uni... few pairs of shorts, a pair of skirt, and a top... well... im happy with my clothes. reali i am... :D

after shoppin we headed down to BK to study... did some decent studyin... did integration if i can rmbr. heh! yeps... den after that we both went down to city hall to meet adrian, lucas, ben and jamie. we ate at marina square's changing appetites... quite yummy... :) decent price too... now we owe ben tan $26 bucks... bahs... finally got to meet my buddies... happy... thank u cus for comin down with me even though u were so tired... thank you!

after that we went to bdk macs to watch the portugal v iran match... haha! thank god we won that match... den after that cus came down to my place. but he was too tired he slept in my room while i was busy screamin my head off at czech... BAH! it was crap manz... czech played like shit, ghana won 2 nil... and i lost alot of money. i was too tired so i din manage to catch the italy game... shites!

oh wells oh wells... yeps... and so i din sleep much before i was forced out of bed to go to church. it was reali very very painful. my eyes cldnt even open and the nerve under my left eye was twitchin... badzzz... but i pulled through the mass. :) thank God... haha! after that went down with mum and samuel to bdk south to eat... well... the mixed rice guys did their thing again... "mei mei (not the sister type of meimei, but the... u noe?)... bi(4) ye(4) le(4) mei(2) you(3)?"... and lots more conversation tryin... haha!

after hanging with my mum and sam abit more... i left straight for cus' place again. was damn tired by then. was hopin to be able to catch some sleep but din manage to. it was checkin odds out and thinkin about wad to bet on tonight's matches... and readin newpaper etc... haha! finally, we headed down to buy bets, eat lunch... i cant realli rmbr wad else but somehow we ended up at bedok to study... :D studied quite a decent amount... den it was dinner and more studyin before the 9 o' clock match - japan v croatia. i bet 2 goals on that for fun... haha! in the end... nil nil... pang sai. haha! oh wells... both teams suck at finishin... they are gd at bringin the ball into the penalty box... but even given the chance, they cant score... just lack the accurate scorers la... sianz...

funny thing is when i was walkin out of the toilet at macs... some guy said hi to me with a smile... and then he and his frens started staring at me... i straight away ran back to my seat and hid behind marcus the whole time... haha! oh wells... guys are quite scary...

so now it's Brazil v Australia... the samba dancers versus the socceroos... i hope brazil does me proud... i reali hope they do...

anyway... i wanna go make specs soon... haha!

and i need cash... im broke... :(

always monsteroo 23:44

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

~ soft kisses . hard laughs ~

always monsteroo 01:18

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Friday, June 16, 2006

:: WORLD CUP::

well... argentina just won serbia by 6 goals can? gosh... wad kinda shit is that? rah! 6 nil manz... goodness gracious me... BAH! i won only the argentina win one... lost abit on my bet on them winnin only 2 nil and 3 nil... so crappy... 6 nil? okie... i think i shld bet argentina runners up or winners... yea... thank god bet argentina top group a long time ago... if not odds fall oredi. oh wells... they play well... serbia shld have man marked... their zone defence not gd enough for the damn fast argen strikers manz...

::HOW ABOUT TODAY?::

today i went down to NUS to pay for my campus application fees... $15.75... sianz. had to go down all the way just to pay for it... but i finally decided to stay in campus... so that's reali gd. will be stayin with Simin... my TKGS buddy... so it's coolios. yea... Marcus went down with me today... we went to check out my house and fac area... im reali glad he went down with me... at least now he noes wad my campus and faculty looks like.

b ah... i promise you that stayin in campus will not result in me being any wilder... any less morally upright... and it will not change my feelings for you... i noe u trust me... thank you for being so supportive of my uni life... i reali appreciate it alot... yeps... thanks...

after that we went back to cus' place and slept and slept and slept... was so damn tired... cuz last night Thong and Cus came over to my place to watch the matches... wah... so we din sleep thruout... until we came back from NUS... so can u imagine... tired beings... haha!

well... back to watching soccer and eatin my macs - ta da da da da... im loving it...

always monsteroo 23:23

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

im at bdk macs now... cus went off to buy the bets for today. haha! gosh... $200 investment today... we did alot of plannin cuz lost quite alot oredi... cuz of the bloody inconsistent games and plays of the teams. haha! crappy... oh wells... we're bettin rather smartly today... so hopefully we win from now... need to get back the losses... :P

oh wells... nothin much reali... im just bored... so decided to blog... later gotta teach him integration and den maybe go cut hair... i wanna buy my daddy's presents soon anyway... handkerchief and white tee shirt... heh...

ok la... cant wait to see england play today... YAY!!!!

always monsteroo 16:16

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i dun believe it manz... the recent matches have been so dumb! so so dumb... Saudi just drew with Tunisia... and Brazil only won by 1 nil... and so many other matches... me and cus have lost alot of money manz... bad bad bad... but nvm... i hope portugal will top group... and i hope later's germany poland match will gain us back our winnings... RAH! and i think gonna bet on Spain top grp manz... they're already on the way considering Saudi and Tunisia drew... ok ok manz...

somehow although im abit disappointed over the Brazil match... im still wanna say i love brazil alot... you guys played fine... u din suck... the man marking from croatia was just too much for you guys... but oh wells... i love u brazil... jia you... i will stick with u till the end... i will continue wearing the yellow and green jersey with 4 stars... :)

im loving this world cup season... it's probably one of the most memorable things of my rship with Cus... cuz it's reali an experience we're so into together... haha! seriously... our dating now has been confined to checkin odds out... hanging at spore pools... readin the back 15 pages of the newpaper together... sendin each other smses on the current scores... sending a simple "YES!" when our team scores. haha! well... simple and monotonous it may sound or sometimes be... it's fun and im glad im sharin it with him... :)

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anyway we had a great anniversary party for my parents and Aunty Mary and Uncle Joe... my parents' were on 13th... theirs was on 14th... so we had a combined party... it was a popiah party. yea... made a reali nice photo thingy for my parents... and me and Marilyn shared a cake for them. yummy cake from Four Leaves... haha! Coco Exotic... yums! esp for a chocolate lover like me... it was great! haha... posted some fotos under my fotos link... :D

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well realli... besides soccer... nothin else is in my life now reali... been reali quite boring... no work... no fun movies or shopping... ive been leadin a tiring... monotonous soccer-oriented life... i wonder why... ha!

always monsteroo 02:07

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Monday, June 12, 2006

manz... im currently goin thru a very emotional time now. basically cuz i just came online... i went to my blog and i saw my old friend from Mrs Mc's class leave a tag for me... i checked my email and i received 2 reali heartwrenching emails... first was from my sis, tellin me about the old times we had at Mrs Mc's, and those sunday mornings... i reali am sad... the second one was from my econs tutor... i emailed her a long time ago... and she finally replied me... the email was short but it tugged at my heart's strings...reali reali hard... the ultimate line was "and rmbr dun skip lessons in uni anymore ok?"... gosh... u noe how much that tugs at my heart and emotions? ive been missing VJ life and all my VJ frens so much... and i miss all my tutors so i emailed them. and i reali want to turn back time... there are so many things i wld have done... and so many things i wld not have done... this is bad...

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and i reali miss those old days... where my rship with my parents were innocent... defiant but no hatred... i miss those days when i wld argue with my sister... but at least i had her around to even argue with her... i miss those days i was happy and i din have so many impt roles in my life...

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and i miss alot of pple...

i miss hangin out and attendin mass with Jocelyn, Max, Damien, Bryan and Marcel... i miss going out with you guys and having fun. i miss attending camps with u guys and juz having fun together...

i miss Simin, Priscilla, Amy, Bee and Lily... i miss the times we'd walk out of TKGS together... go to Blue Cafe, or parkway, or even to the video shop juz to hang and snack... i miss those times we'd take neo-prints together. i miss talkin to you guys about life, our problems... and i miss the way we told each other the truth even though it hurts...

i miss Miss Lim... i miss talkin to you and singin under yr baton. i miss those practices where you wld tell us yr funny stories and i miss your scolding so much. i miss the times we'd just sit around in the Beethoven Room and chat...

i miss Jamie, Lucas, Ben, Adrian, Gabriel, Jianhao... i miss us hangin out in the choir room... hanging out after school... i miss bimbo-ing with jamie... i miss talkin to lucas and buyin lemon 1000 for him... i miss hearin ben say he wanna shi shi (pee) and i miss buying food for him and goin to 7-11 with him... i miss talkin to adrian and have him mutilate my soft toys... i miss gabriel helpin with math no matter how busy he is... i miss discussin geog with jianhao and the yr one days we had... i miss everyone goin down to parkway together for lunch at food courts... or dinner after choir... i miss rushin down to Shaw to watch movie and cursing and swearin at the jam while we're on the bus... i miss my VJ life with you guys... these pple reali brought me thru all my problems and my life in VJ... i love you guys...

i miss my sister because she's just too darn far away from me...

i miss my A54 classmates although i seldom saw them... but i miss being in the same class as u guys... i miss bein angry with tutors together... i miss plannin which lessons and days to mass pon together...

i miss my tuition tchrs... like Mrs McCully, my oral communication tchr... without her i wldnt be able to public speak as well now... i miss Priscilla, my sec sch math tuition teacher... without her i wldnt have loved math and got A1's consistently thru my A and E math... i miss Mrs Regina Tan, my sec sch english and lit tuition teacher... i miss Mrs Foo, my sec sch chinese tuition teacher... i miss Mr Chin, my JC math tutor... i miss Lancelot Lim, my yr 1 econs tuition teacher...

i miss my VJ tutors... Miss Cindy Low, Mr Harris, Mrs Lim (Miss Tan), Mr Hoe Gim Yau, Miss Tan Geok Lan, Miss Lian, Mr Pang... i reali miss them so much. although i know they probably hate me for bein reali notti and such a ponner... but i miss them. i even miss playin hide and seek with them...

i miss my seniors... Valmond, Owen, Dai Feng, Gim Sen, Zhenyan, Nicholas - these seniors who actually made it a point to talk to me...

i miss alot of other random friends... Samantha from TK... Amanda Ferrao and the whole KC gang... Jeremy Oh and Chia... Jazryl... Shaun...

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there're a lot of pple i wanna meet up with again... but ive lost their contact... there're a lot more pple i miss that i havent written down...

im reali feelin very emotional now... bah... this is bad... i feel like crying...

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besides that... ive been into the world cup like mad. watchin every single match and bettin alot on the matches... i reali hope Portugal emerges group champs manz... argh!

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so yesteray i had church in the mornin... followed by the food fair in church itself. after that i went over to cus' place... hung, slacked, discussed soccer odds and bets... den went down to buy bets and eat... went back up for dinner with his parents... yah. after that i went home... went home to a bunch of fun kids... played murderer and pictionary. Joel asked me to act my dad... haha! it was funny... after that i watched the 3 world cup matches... and to be honest, im downright disappointed with portugal... ONE MISERABLE GOAL against tobago.. eat shit manz!

okok... the post has been long enough.

i have one last thing to say - im sorry and i love you. it's just been a tryin period for me... thanks for bein here and tryin... sorry once again.

always monsteroo 14:23

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

that's us... at macs...

cus lying comfortably flat on the macs chair

fries... without salt... haha!

that's Dennis oh and me!!!

dennis and cus... discussing soccer i think... :D

me and my darling again...

the three of us after the 2nd match... at 5 am? haha!

yea... it was a 5am... definitely needing the rest we lacked... :)

finally... the 3 retarded us... haha! actually only marcus is being retarded...

more fotos in the link - world cup opening night... :D cheerios!

always monsteroo 17:30

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summary...
~ Mon to Wed: prayers at my place
~ Thu: tampines, benchwarmers
~ Fri & Sat: overnight world cup session
~ Sat afternoon: world cup bets for tonight's matches

wah... it's been a long time since i blogged... well... basically because the past few days have been reali busy and packed with activities. haha!

Mon to Wed i had prayers at my house in the nights... so yah... there was alot of hanging till like 12 plus one plus kinda thing... just chatting and hanging with my friends and my family friends... reali cool. cuz one of my family friends is actually a lay member of the Opus Dei... so we had an insightful talk about it with him... coolios is the word to go about it. yeps... :D

den... thursday... now what happened on thursday? oh yea... i had work like in the afternoon... from 2.30 to 5.30... yea... after which i met Cus at Tampines... yea. we ate yummy yummy long john's and an old chang kee curry-o for dinner... yums! den we walked walked abit... den he suggested we go check out movie timings... so it was cool... we went upstairs... den he took out 2 movie tickets that he oredi bought earlier on... so sweet right? gosh... i was super super happy... i mean nobody has ever done that for me before... it was such a pleasant surprise... thank you so damn much! haha! yeps... what more it was for the movie Benchwarmers... haha! damn funny show... it's reali a good laugh manz. haha... it's a reali short movie... but a reali good one at that... go watch it if u can... it's reali good shit... yea. after the movie we walked arnd... went to buy hairband and he bought rather nice new slippers... will post the pictures up sometime soon. yah... den we went macs to study awhile... before i headed for home and he continued studyin there... cool funky day.

den friday... which was yesterday... haha! i had work again... from 2.30 to 5.30... taught abit and photocopied abit... but it was more slack then the past few make up holiday sessions. yeps. rather enjoyed myself. got this new P1 boy im currently takin one on one... damn cute... his name is JAMIE! haha! yeps... handsome and damn cute... st stephen's boy. im beginning to have a crush on him. muahahaha! yeps...

after work... i met cus at bedok. i was famished by then. reali starving... so we ate... i ate nasi lemak and he ate mixed rice. after that we went down to parkway cuz i had to post letters, print photos and make the anni present for my parents... which is this Tue. thank God i went down early cuz any later and i wldnt have been able to get it done by their anni... so yea... it's like 90 bucks la... i reali hope it comes out nice. daylight robbery... but i din have time to check out where wld have like cheaper ones so ya. went ahead and did it. :) reali hope it comes out nice *cross fingers*

after parkway... we went back down to Bedok... we ate again... haha! cuz we were not reali full... haha! and rather greedy... so it was chicken wings, fish soup and fried kway teow for us at the hawker centre... after which... we headed down to Macs for our overnight WORLD CUP OPENING session!!! haha! super fun... Dennis came down to join us too. so we studied a very little bit first... did abit of tangent and normal revision and qns... den the opening game started. haha! Germany versus Costa Rica. haha! 12 to 2... good game... interesting game. it was damn cool... my bet was that Germany wins with first goal by CR... Cus' bet was CR wins with first goal by Germany... so in the end... we both din win or lose anythin to each other. haha! useless game... interesting match though. goals were sleek and cool. WOW!

den we tried to study ABIT before the 2nd match started at 3... but somehow we cldnt. haha! so Poland kicked off with Ecuador and it was a damn damn damn boring match. i bet that with Cus that it would be a draw while cus bet Poland wld win. haha! in the end... well... Poland let in 2 goals and scored none. useless bums! ok la... they were just unlucky... hit the bloody poles like twice! gosh... it cld have been a draw manz. i cld have gotten my money. haha! ate a total of 1 large fries, 1 medium fries, 1 mcchicken burger, 1 large ice milo, packet of raisins, one bar of crunch choco, fruitella, one harshbrown... haha! yeps... amazing pigs we are...

yeps... after that the 3 of us went down to hawker centre to have breakfast at 5am. haha! but we had damn good shit nasi lemak for breakfast. chao yummy manz... with a harshbrown i ta-paoed from macs of cuz. haha! yummy yummy yummy... and then we had some dumb funny discussion about how we were gonna wash our hands or clean our hands... obviously i realised how disgusting boys can get. YUCKS! so we kinda left the place for home with "quite dirty" hands. haha! yeps...

i went to cus place... we discussed tonight's matches abit... decided wad we gonna bet on... then we went to sleep... woke up at one just now... discussed somemore... went to buy our bets from the spore pools downstairs cus' place... den eat lunch. so we're bettin like a total of $160 on England V Paraguay, Sweden V Trinidad&Tobago, Mexico V Iran and Brazil V Croatia... yea... coolios... $100 on England win. $20 on England home-home. $5 on Sweden win 3 nil. $5 on Sweden win 2 nil. cant rmbr the other 2 further matches. haha! so ya... ahhhhhh... i cant wait for tonight's matches. England had better not let me down! haha!

the World Cup is damn interesting u noe? i love it... i reali am loving it!

always monsteroo 15:49

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

hmmm... had a tryin "last nite" and a trying day today... basically cuz of my dumbass mood swings la. BAH! i dunno wad got into me last night... rather in the wee hours of the mornin and i started throwin my rubbish tantrums n asked Marcus to cheer me up while he was studyin halfway... wad a bitch eh? wad more it was about shopping??? but oh wells... he endured my rubbish - thank u so so so muchie! yeps... and den today i also had some streaks of stubborness and moodish times - eating ginko nut, about dinner, about me feelin uncomfortable. gosh... wad a baby... but as usual he stood by all that and took my rubbish in. how often can u actually find a guy who will take such crappy rubbish tantrums in stride, still hold yr hand and tries to get u out of that mood. im sorry for my crappy moods... :(

but anyhow, it all went well... mornin i went to church... slept at like 5am teachin Cus math... den woke up to prepare for church at like 8 am? gosh... it was mad... my head was spinnin and i was so tired... *yawns* after mass i went down to Long John's at Bdk to eat lunch with my brother... he reali is a growin boy manz. he ate 4 pieces of chicken while the most i could down was one miserable piece... so much for cravin for long john's... when i actually got the chance to eat it... i cldnt reali eat. BAH! but anyhow... after lunch i went straight down to Cus' place... napped awhile... thank God i caught up abit on my sleep... den after that... headed down to Bugis with the intention to shop... we did shop abit. tried on a few clothes... den we decided to shop for accessories instead... so we went to Perlini's and Nouveau's to look at our couple rings. we'll get down to buyin a ring soon... yes we will... :D

we din reali manage to decide or try on any rings... den Cus' parents picked us up and we all went for dinner... with some relatives. it was somewhat a different type of dinner... got course liddat one... haha! i felt la... abit lame but ya... it started off with carrot cake. den came the frog legs. followed by the satay. den followed by the whole string of dishes and plain rice. heh... it was... weird? haha! i dunno la... but dinner was ego-boosting... *grins*

after that... we wanted to head straight down to Bdk Macs to study... got some stuff to revise with him... but somehow tiredness got the better deal and we went back home to rest instead... revised abit of math... abit of differentiation... den ya... he went on to sleep and i headed back for home...

so yah... it's been quite a day... haha! but i enjoyed it...

i wanna buy a camera, a new fone and a MP3 player. but what sucks is that... i have no money. haha! i WANT a new fone... i NEED a mp3 player... but i noe the most WORTHY BUY wld be a camera. so there... anyone can offer me a suggestion about my horrible dilemna? plus ive decided to start saving abit more money... bleagh... this is rather tough.

finally bought my facial wash today... been dyin without it. actually i realise how much simple pleasures each day can actually cheer me up so much... haha! i can actually spread out my "fun activities" and simple pleasures across a few days... buy couple ring on one day... go cut hair on another day... actually hmmm... seems like there's only 2 currently... but nvm... i will work on thinkin up a few more...

i gotta go wake Cus up to study now... tata everybody...

yikes! wad a long post... :P

always monsteroo 22:59

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Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I’ve never seen the sky before
Want to furnish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you, until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn’t seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there’s no mountain too high, no river too wide
Sing out this song and I’ll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may go by
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

always monsteroo 00:32

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Saturday, June 03, 2006

yo yo everyone... im at macs with Cus... its so funky cuz i have my laptop here! WOW! haha! well... simple pleasures of life. yeps... today was yet another chao slack day... reali... haha!

sleep... eat... sleep... eat... gosh. the wonder and beauty of a slacker's life...

haha! okok... get down to teachin him math now...

i wanna go cut hair... bah... but i dunno what haircut to cut... maybe i shld just not change my hairstyle and like just layer the current one i have abit more... haha!

im bored... :P

always monsteroo 21:45

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Friday, June 02, 2006

well... today was a nice day... reali nice and fun day... heh!

mornin woke up... helped sam with maths abit... den bathed and went down to Bdk Reservoir for a jog. my muscles are aching now reali. damn suan... gonna get muscle ache... sure one. i jogged about 1km only while cus jogged about 400m more... yah. but i did 50 sit ups and 50 step ups while he jogged that 400m... so quite decent la huh? haha! yah...

after that went to eat breakfast/lunch... i ate like 2 pao's and like fruits... dats all. and we shared a can of oolong tea. how healthy manz... :) im quite proud of myself... haha! yea... my diet shall go on liddat.

after eating, we went Bdk to study... ok... we went Bdk with the intention of studyin. haha! in the end we ended up like snackin at the hawker centre... den bought newspaper and LIME mag and headed to macs... haha! of cuz the world cup fever got the better of us and we started checking the teams out... planning the matches to bet and how much to bet on each... checking the star teams and players out... manz... we did that for quite awhile... opened LIME and started lookin for gd lookin guys. haha! so yea... u get the point... we did not start studyin...

den cus was hungry... so we went back to the hawker to eat... AGAIN! haha! well... i din eat much. diet diet!!! haha! yeps... after dinner, we headed straight to airport to study... ok... again with the intention of studyin... but when we reached there, we started making movies and taking videos of each other. we were reali high in the train and upon reaching there. it was so fun and cool... reali very relaxing manz. yeps... so we played and played... den we ordered coke and sundae. and we SAID we were gonna start after the ice cream. but somehow, we ended up talkin and that led us on to playin tic tac toe, cancelling sticks game and BINGO! haha! im a pro at BINGO manz... reali sia... i had only one stray number for one of the games... how cool is that? haha! yeps... cus owes me french fries... haha! yeps... we decided to postpone math to another day. yes... slackers we are. haha!

after that Dennis came and i left... yeps. so basically that was my slack day...

my definition of a COOLIOS day... i had alot of fun... and im very very happy... :)

always monsteroo 23:51

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FUCK THEM!!!

seriously... look la... firstly, im 20 yrs old... fine... 19... but what the fuck? i deserve some sort of freedom and adultship dun i? pls manz... im old enough to get married really... so just fuck off my back will u guys?

secondly, i saved u guys hell a lot of money by not studyin overseas... i studied as hard as i could to get myself into NUS... into a local uni so that u guys wont hafta spend so much money sending me overseas... so APPRECIATE it manz... fuck! i mean look... da jie went to Aus when she was how old? 18? 19? yah... and there she had all the freedom she wanted... i could have gone overseas too. but i did my best to stay here, do it locally to save u guys the money... so please... give me what i deserve...

now that im confirmed a place in the local uni... and i chose to stay at home instead of at the campus. obviously it'll save u guys hell alot of money also... right? it's so much cheaper stayin at home instead... so god damn it... APPRECIATE IT manz... fucks!

not only am i not supposed to have a curfew... im only half an hour late... fuck it. and come on manz... it's not as if im always coming back at like one plus two plus? it's only like ten plus eleven plus? get a fucking life and appreciate the fact that im not fightin to stay in campus ok?

the fact that im saving u guys some money... appreciate it and give me the freedom i deserve from that and the freedom i deserve at 20...

fuckers... fuck out of my life...

always monsteroo 23:27

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Thursday, June 01, 2006

a day of fun...

yes, i just had a wonderful day of fun. i had printin job in the mornin. im still enjoyin myself alot at it... although it's like the second time only... and the pay im gettin is meagre... i get alot of satisfaction fr these admin stuff... i smile when i look at the stacks of stuff i just printed. stacks and stacks of nice new printed wkshts n test papers... im sure im not the only one who enjoys seein it right? heh! *deluded* and i actually seek lotsa pleasure in the "efficieny game"... so far only Cus understands it. it's a reali cool and ego-boostin game... it makes u feel efficient and smart...

hmmm... den after that i went down to Cus' house for lunch... slacked arnd abit den headed off to Bdk to eat desert... yums! after desert we headed down to airport to study... i taught him vectors. wow! i actually lost some touch of it... but somehow im so reminded of how i drilled Vectors into Ben's head... haha! well, i reali hope my darling rmbrs what ive taught. haha! it's my favourite chapter... :)

after studyin... at about 8 we left the airport n went to Bdk North there to eat our... dinner/supper? yeps... im super full reali... we both are... gosh... i dun believe it... im actually reali fat now... how? okie... diet's the plan.

actually somehow, im feelin... loserish. manz... it's like i feel like there's nothin reali gd about me... im childish... i whine alot... i can be so irritating at times... im reali fat now cuz ive been eatin like mad, i reali feel terribly fat and ugly... i feel like im not good at anythin at all and there's nothin for anybody to be proud of me of...

haiz... i dunno la. i dun think anybody will currently understand how im feelin... it feels horrible... i think i will go on a diet... yes i will. i will curb all my cravings and not give in to any... but so what if i lose SOME weight? i still am nothin to be proud of... i dun see what u see in me really... haiz...

but thanks for standing by me all these months and always tellin me how beautiful u think i am... and how funny u think i am... i just wish i could make u happier and more proud of me... maybe i will just work on bein the best gf arnd...

im loving it though...

i reali feel very fat... i need to diet... i really do... damn it...

always monsteroo 23:21

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im currently really high... i think it must be the chocolate... haha! yeps...

i had work today... taught from 2.30 to about 5... kinda slack actually. after that i went down to Bdk Interchange to meet my baby for dinner before heading down to VCH for TPJ's choir concert... yeps.

it was cool cuz i met my TKGS classmate... a super long-ago classmate kinda thing... and yah... the world's so small... she's my boyfriend's childhood fren. muahaha! yah... the finding out that we all knew each other process was just too interesting... yea. it's a small small world out there... somehow, i miss my frens. :(

it was fun... mini screw ups here and there... but oh wells, all was great in the end... im a reali happy gal...

my legs are aching and im havin a bad headache though...

u noe i nvr knew that loving someone and having someone love you could be such an overwhelming feeling... yeps... till i met you... thanks dearie for even choosin me to walk this path with you... :)

tata everybody... off for the night. too sleepy... CHEERIOS! :D

always monsteroo 00:15

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