FOUND TRUE LOVE

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

why are u guys being so damn difficult? am i not trying to make smth happen here? am i not trying? but each time i try i dun get any response from any of you? what is going on with u guys manz? i mean... are u guys that difficult to maintain a friendship with? am i not worth u guys trying to maintain a friendship with at least? or are u guys just being weird in choosing the friends u guys want? seriously... im done with all that... so many sms-es and nobody replies... what's up man dudes???

jamie where are you? or even someone in spore, dawn, for that matter... why is it that im online and there's nobody i can talk to? im struggling my way here... im having so much of a hard time here in spore... im coping with so many difficult and shitty small things... that when i tell pple about them they think it's so super small and dumb that i shldnt even care about them... but im sure u guys will understand how it is like... all the small things coming at once...

seriously... why do i have to deal with this whole load of stuff piling up on me... dun u realise that the consequences of my own actions are even heavier for me to bear? dun u realise that im the one who has to live in pain, doubt and fear? dun u realise how thick a mud uve created for me to trudge through?

smile everyday, try everyday... but yet still i know in my heart im failing... and one day im just going to fall apart... break within... lose myself in this whole thing... i dun get it... did i make a wrong decision then? why am i even doubting?

someone... anyone... please help me...

always monsteroo 23:12

----- final whistle, game over -----

Monday, October 22, 2007

it seems my life's coming to a standstill... maybe it's school... what with the amount of work and all... maybe it's my lack of activities? i dunno... it's just reaching a point where im not sure if it's a hopeless standstill or a comfortable case of stability... im still not sure if i like where i am...

ive been coming online to talk to jamie... but each time im online she isnt... and that sucks...

We Wear the Mask

We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes -
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile.
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!

always monsteroo 00:58

----- final whistle, game over -----

Saturday, October 13, 2007

u are the worst person i can ever have in my life right now....

and i know u wont even be reading this because u dun even care...

so what if ive done my best? how does that even ring yr balls? it doesnt at all... your freaking balls still have to be manually rang with a big bamboo pole...

because u are just so dense... so so dense...

ultimate insensitive, ultimate selfish... ultimate unappreciative...

there are pple out there who will appreciate me more than you... and they're reaching out more to me than anything else in the world... and they seem to care a hell lot more...

so dun let these pple ring them balls of yours... ring them yrselves...

always monsteroo 14:14

----- final whistle, game over -----

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

apologies smellipig... ive been neglecting you... yes i know... but ive really been busy... before mid-term i was up to a meter above my neck with work and datelines... and so during the mid-term break i went for a short getaway to Genting with myoneandonly...

yes... i know... first qn: isnt mid-term suppose to be a time to catch up and study for midtermtests? well... yes... but i havent any midtermtests so lucky for me... and plus im so freakin stressed up here in spore with all the crappy pple arnd me i just wanted to get out of here... and get out of seeing your dreary horrible thought-provoking blog... you suck like shit anyway? hope you know that... kinda glad ure in the state you are in now... you deserve it...

second qn would probably be along the lines of: GENTING??? why AGAIN? and just WHY? hahaha! yes i know... genting of all places right? but u see... we have plans for HK at the end of this year, Russia next june, and England, namely Manchester, namely Old Trafford (and of cuz 2 BPL matches there) the minute myone ORDs... so there's budget constraints... and anyhow we both just wanted some time off alone to slack, eat, sleep, play and enjoy cold cold weather...

and indeed we achieved what we went there for... long bathtub baths... 2 dinner buffets of eating till puke-point... lots of expensive but yummy food... sleeping... watching 24hrs soccer in the hotel room... really... slacking and eating indeed... haha!

so yeps... ive been busy with work and "busy" with getting away from crap... now that im back... i hope it all doesnt start again...

for now im just gonna rest and catch ManU play Roma later on... the darling has just popped up beside me to remind me of the godly time... okie... nights everybody....

i shall be back...

always monsteroo 01:39

----- final whistle, game over -----