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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

A duck walks into a store...
"Do u have any gwapes?"
"No"
"Do u have any gwapes?"
"No!"
"Do u have any gwapes?"
"NO!!! Ask that one more time and ill nail your beak together!"
"Do u have any nailsss?"
"NO!!!"
"Do u have any gwapes?"

i rmbr posting this on my blog before... i enjoyed it so much when my bro told it to me... and i still enjoy it a lot... it's really cute... haha!

always monsteroo 00:32

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this is so wrong...

i have a historical variation tomorrow at 5pm and here i am worrying about man u more than for my paper tomorrow...

im not quite so prepared for tomorrow's paper... i hate this module the most out of all the modules i did this sem... it's so... historical... i mean it's really interesting to know how english came about and the many changes etc... how english is that BASTARD language we all know it to be... but an exam on it would really stink...

i hope this sem's exams will pull up my cap...

but at the rate at which im studying... nah... i dun think so...

always monsteroo 00:25

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and so in less than 3 hours, man u will be hosting barce... and this match will determine who will get thru to the next round of the champs league qualifiers...

man u is suffering from a bit of an injury problem... vidic has a split lip... and he's one of the best and most vital (and a very handsome) center-back for the team... i hope he'll be ok... i really like him... rooney is also suffering from a hip injury... i admire that bear for his sacrifices... he scored a goal against chelsea just last week and thus worsened his injury... he's the sort that will sacrifice for a team... and that is precisely the attitude of a world-class striker...

not quite so keen on a few of the midfielders though... i think we dun have a competent enough buncha boys out there in the midfield... nani - he still lacks experience and still wants to score goals himself, thus losing many great chances for the team... scholes - i love this guy, i really do, but he's been abit unstable recently... sometimes im not sure if he forgets that he isnt in the opponent's team... always losing possession that dude... being unstable is unacceptable at this point of the league race and champs league kickouts...

i just hope man u wins barce tonight... it's really impt we do... it'd be fantastic if we can get a double... i'd scream for joy...

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on a separate note, ive been feeling very weird... like something's wrong with my life...

can somebody tell me what it is?

just come forward, be honest, and tell me what's wrong...

always monsteroo 00:16

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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

i hate exams... i really do... it's so tiring to be studying for exams... especially with 4 english mods... it's like all of them are almost similar i get so damn confused... i really cant wait for it to end...

but exams ending means less time spent together i assume... more computer time... gettin a com etc... you tell me... what exactly is there to look forward to after my exams? a new computer... that's what? please...

dun give excuses on birthdays etc... the minute it comes it just means the birthday crash... if u cant understand that... then u dun know me well enought... but i know i cant stop you... but i cant bring myself to support you either...

somebody tell me... why is it so hard to be happy for someone when it means making you really sad and really heartbroken? haiz... this stinks...

and my bloody mouse konked out on me... my little orange mouse blasted itself on me... i think it's cuz it dropped and knocked against stuff abit too often maybe? i dunno... but i think i need to go and get a new mouse...

and my lappie is also starting to malfunction... weird stuff happening... random switching on and off... sudden black screens that dun respond to any shit... abrupt popping up of error messages i dun understand... haiz... it always happens liddat... esp when there's no control over the surfing you do...

after my exams ive only got a short 3 week break before i start my internship... yup i am glad i got it... but of cuz taking up my whole june and a daily working affair is smth i cant seem to smile about... esp now when all i want is just a break from exams... manz... internship means shopping for new adult-ish clothes to wear for that whole month... thank god my darling parents are sponsoring me 500bucks for this shopping thing... and im sure every gal will be esctatic over shopping for new clothes with money from parents!!! but not me... i dun quite like shopping... shopping makes me tired... im always looking for a place to sit after the first 45 mins...

so yup... i dun quite know what im looking forward to at the end of exams... i think nothing much...

im a person who kinda hates change... i dun think it's because i cant handle change... im sure if im put into it i can... but i like being comfortable... it's like friends... when u find yr comfortable bunch u just stay there... why bother changing and finding new hang-out buddies?

there's going to be so much change for me and im so not looking forward to it...

and YOU're not helping either...

always monsteroo 14:48

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

my boyfriend asked me this question after practice today:

how come when u sing like so soft liddat? like so weak? like the resonance (if any) not healthy kind one?

well, my answer - "i really dunno?"

when what i really wanted to answer was - "because i am a weak singer... i stopped learning anything about singing techniques since i was 17 when i entered VJChoir... my singing started to decline from then on... and because of that now i dunno how to sing at all although i like singing..."

so u see... how am i suppose to answer your question there?

maybe u shld offer positive suggestions to improve instead of asking a "how come liddat" question... because that really left me at a loss for words and yet a lot of things running through my head...

always monsteroo 17:07

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

an open leader is a good leader.

what good is a leader if he/she is not open to opinions and comments? but instead take these opinions personally? shldnt a leader of an organisation be glad that its members are even bothered enough to give comments and opinions... rather than be led by the nose?

what's worse is when a leader takes these comments, shares them among his/her group of friends and talk/laugh/joke about it... or worse criticise and mock it...

to be a good leader, one needs to be the best servant.

it may be the most difficult thing, being a leader... u do yr best to put smth together... and then pple come along and make comments about it... but hey... that's precisely IN the job-scope when u take up a leadership role... if not do you think it's THAT easy to be a good leader? why else are there millions of "Be a star leader" or "Lead your team to success" books all around... and when i flip through them, one of the primary issues is this of maturity and openess... professionalism esp... not take an opinion that has tread on yr toes and bring it around for laughing gas production...

we all know it's not easy... but you have to at least TRY... you cant just do things so flippantly... the consequences are very bad... not only for you, not only for the person giving the opinion, but also for the whole team... the whole organisation fails along with your inappropriate handling...

im not saying im the best leader... dun get me wrong... please... but i've just been under enough of leaders and in enough of organisations to be able to post about this...

being a leader is shit tough... my kudos to all those out there who have led well and are leading well... but to all those who know u havent been a nice-or-good of a leader... i hope you will keep trying... because the consequences are painful... for the organisation and the pple in it...

dun let the passion die because of such politics please...

always monsteroo 11:44

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i know im not studying hard enough... but i cant seem to get myself to focused and down to work... haiz... i dunno what the hell is wrong with me...

anyway... all in the nature of having fun still while a week away from them papers... i went to watch The Other Boleyn Girl... very nice show i must say... kinda captures the old english culture very well... heh... loved it... everybody shld watch it... a film with depth...

sad though... hated the ending... i seemed to be able to sympathise with almost everybody in the film... which makes me think it's a great cast... they all played their roles very naturally and very well... but i still hate the ending... bah...

okie... i shall attempt to get back to studyin...

p/s: that was absolutely irresponsible... my safety and life not even worth a cab fare? just think about it...

always monsteroo 00:14

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Friday, April 18, 2008

and so Ben had his 21st on Monday... 14th April... i hope u enjoyed it dude... sorry no seafood buffet at a posh hotel... but a mini bbq downstairs yr place... :)

and so the theme was film... everybody was supposed to be dressed in black and white... black and white utensils... and yup... the deco of cuz...

yup.... and of cuz every bday boy had to be kai-ed... haha! what more on his 21st... it was satay sauce, coke, lotsa ice in the pants... and a journey down to the pool... and into the water... :D

heh... and of cuz the bday cake... and the various groups of frens and family... :)

ben and family... so sweet...

ben and the army gang... haha! funny dudes...

ben and all-ever cat high boys... :)

finally the VJ peeps... :D

and ALL OF US FRIENDS...

so there ben... happy 21st...

p/s... i have lotsa other fotos... but din upload all... haha! but if any of you wanna see them or want them can lemme know... :D

always monsteroo 01:42

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Sunday, April 13, 2008

yesterday was pretty confusing for me... haha! yup...

went for leonardo practice at which i finally am starting to learn some thing about music... the kensas guy was good... little words but so damn useful words.... some pple shld really master that skill...

after that it was airport for popeyes and sending Fran off... bye babe... i wish u all the best... anyway too bad i din bring my camera yesterday... else it wld have been quite a good momento... basically becuz i hung out with pple whom i dun always hang out with... and i actually miss these kinda frenships...

the talk at Pac coffee was inspiring... was open... was painful... was everything actually... but somehow i dunno why i feel like ive found depth in those friends of mine... it's like u dun always have such intellectual conversations... and last night's one just made me miss you guys even more...

i actually kinda feel sad about the rship i have with someone... or rather frenship... if i could turn back time id actually re-do so many things and changed things with you... up till today i think ure one person i can actually talk to and share certain dreams with... like i still enjoy talking to you (whenever we have the chance to that is)... but somehow our frenship was terrible destroyed by i dunno what... i have no idea what it was that destroyed us... fear? gossips? commitment?? i dunno... but after last night i think i really miss a fren in you... i really do... it's like i spent last night thinking about my JC days and how all those went well... just only that i wish i held on to certain frens upon graduating... or that we didnt have certain conflicts and arguments...

okie... im being so damn bloody crappily emo... haha! im going to season chicken wings now... :D

always monsteroo 13:12

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Friday, April 11, 2008

i cant believe that after 3 years (okie... almost there)... im still saying this...

i love baobaotime...

haha! i sound like a pathetic child... but i guess the 3 long years have brought me to this level of joy and understanding...

rough times... yup... we all go through them... but at least we're all still honest and open... at least we try the hell of our lives to be... there's really no point if not for that...

okie... i think im rambling on crappish... but anyway i guess what i really mean to say in short is that i appreciate this thing that's happening to me... and that if not for all the problems we've been through it wldnt actually feel this way... yes i hate certain memories and certain pple who've tried to come btwn us... but still after 3 long years having this level... it really is smth i never expected possible for me...

everybody out there... pls treasure yr other halves... and dun ever think that the rship is doomed to fail... i believe ive been in the dump-est of situations and i may not be totally out of it... but i think i am on my way... and nothing is unsalvageable... u just have to be really thick-skinned about it, hang in there and everything will work out when there is a will...

i just hope my life goes on liddat (at least for this aspect of it) forever... doesnt seem too impossible... but then again it's hard to say... haiz...

life is unpredictable...

im so ramblish... and so deserve to be boxed off to bed...

okok... baobaotime... ill just climb back into bed and try to wake the whole world up...

yup... u are the whole world to me... (im losing my mind i think... fishcake and balls!)

always monsteroo 01:17

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Thursday, April 10, 2008

and so i attended Rhapsody 8 today... well done VS... i think u guys did a fantastic job... very neat... very well performed... simple yet very classy... vocal wise i dun have much to say... always been a fan of the VSChoir... so yup... kudos to a very enjoyable concert... loved u guys... loved every minute of the concert... :D

vjchoir also did well... very stable the choir... very impressed with their singing... but like i already told them, just a little bit more heart to the music would make it perfect... im proud of you juniors... it felt good sitting in VCH knowing that im a senior... well done...

always monsteroo 23:17

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

this part of my life is called the boring part...

exams and nothing but exams...

argh...

always monsteroo 14:13

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