im so damn fucking pissed... let's recount the event for you... check this out... you HAVE to read it... i noe it's long... but gosh... just read it if ure free... so there it goes...

after having a rather yummy dinner at the basement of tampines mall... me and marcus headed up to the interchange macdonalds to study. along the way, we passed by the POSB atm and so decided to deposit some winnings from the matches we betted on etc. i withdrew $500 to deposit into my UOB spending account cuz my mum transferred money into my POSB account, which is my savings acct. anyway... i put the 500 bucks into my wallet and we walked off. towards macs.

we chose to sit outside cuz we din want the TV inside to disturb us. it can really get quite noisy and irritating with its "ta da da da da, im loving it!" chose a seat away from the smoking area and sat down. so we laid everything out nicely and all. i decided to take out the 500 bucks from my wallet and put it in my bag, for i dunno what reason. and so i did. after that, i put my wallet and handphone on the table, bags on chair beside me etc. so we started studyin and i started teachin him hypothesis testing.

midway, we decided to take a break and he took the muffin and cookies we bought earlier on. he put the famous amos plastic bag on the table in front of us, because i was still busy figuring one part of the question while he munched away on his raisin muffin.

den from the corner of my eye, behind the famous amos plastic bag which was blocking me and marcus' view partially, i caught a malay guy reaching out for my phone, which was also behind the famous amos plastic bag, on a file. upon catching my eye, the malay guy handed it back to me. thing is, he hadn't fully taken the phone to his side or front or near his body for that matter. i only managed to see him hold my phone slightly above my file, if u guys get wad i mean. when he handed it back to me, i clearly clearly saw a look of fear wipe across his face. and so still staring at him, i took marcus wad happened, softly and in hushed tones. marcus stared at him and asked him "what was that about?" he replied in his ever so malay accent "drrroping wat!" and so marcus dismissed it saying he probably din mean it. i continued staring at him. just stared. i dunno why. i just stared. i just wasn't convinced.

den at that moment, he lifted one hand high in the air and sorta waved to someone in macs itself (cuz we were outside)... so our suspicions were wavered even more cuz he was "with a friend"... i din wanna be a bitch and start checking my bag and stuff cuz it'd mean i was suspecting him and u noe... it just wasn't nice. wad if he reali was tryin to be nice right? and so i kind of left it at that and tried to continue teachin marcus for like 15 seconds. both of us still staring at him from the corner of our eyes. den he left and walked into macs. and stood beside another malay guy queueing at the counter. i cldnt really see if they were talking. but i assumed they were friends.

that was when i took the chance and checked my bag. i cldnt find my wallet. realising at that instance that i left my wallet right beside my phone, it all clicked. it was gone. marcus kept asking me to check and check again, cuz if we were to mistake him stealing it, it'd be terribly unpleasant. i checked again. no sign of my wallet. pretty darn sure this time that he took it, we turned to look for him - GONE! marcus went into macs to look for him and we cldnt find him. instead, marcus saw his so called "friend" sitting there eating with his girlfriend and clearly they din noe each other at all. while i sat there in cold sweat and shock and disgust searching to no avail for my wallet, marcus walked arnd the interchange looking for that fucking bastard. i immediately checked our bags for our ipod and our recently bought camera. thank god those were there. then came the 500 bucks... i was so damn thankful that right before we started studyin, i just for no particular reason, took out the money and decided against leaving it in my wallet. thank god!

well, yes, obviously we cldnt find him. but really. wad a fucking bastard he is. seriously. and the funny thing is... he even wanted to take my phone! gosh! my close frens out there reading this, have u seen the state of my phone with the rubber band tied arnd it cuz else the whole battery will fall out? damnit. fucker man.

then my darling went into macs and spoke to the manager and asked if they had CCTV's arnd... smart darling. yes, they can actually catch a clip of him via the CCTV when he was standing at the counter with his "friend"... but they dun have a CCTV clip of him actually taking my wallet. so yah... made a police report. police asked me if i wanna pursue the matter and actually charge him as a suspect, but without evidence, it'd be more troublesome cuz i hafta give statements and go down many times as the case runs on. and shld he want to deny his act, he can charge me back for false accusations etc etc etc... so ya. i just filed a lost and found report and decided to drop the matter. but goodness... wad a fucker. i reali cant think of any other word that suits him better... downright fucking bastard...

i shld have been more quick-witted... i mean which guy sees yr phone dropping and takes yr phone to return it to you... gosh... wouldnt a normal guy just go "excuse me, your phone's dropping." RIGHT?!?!?!?! i am so dumb! so damn dumb! fuck la... and i shld have asked marcus to keep watchin the guy while i checked my stuff. damnit... but he (marcus) had his back facing macs la... so sick la that fucker!

so anyway, he made away with $17 dollars, my POSB atm card, my UOB atm card, my UOB debit card, my NUS matriculation student card, my popular card and MY NRIC!!!!!!! gosh... this is the 2nd time im losing it so there u have it... that's 300 BUCKS!!!!!! ARGH! it's no wonder my parents almost grilled me alive. oh wells... and of cuz he has my wallet, my darling GuyL wallet which marcus bought me last xmas! RAH!!!! im so damn pissed off and so damn sad... and all the photos... and an SAF phonecard ben gave me earlier this yr... and my 4 plasters i put in there as spare... and receipts and i guess a whole lot of emotional stuff. sucker...

if i had caught him taking my wallet, i wld have actually looked at him straight in the eye and said, here look, take the money and give me back my wallet and get the fuck outta here... i wont even report yr fucking ass to the police manz. i just want my NRIC and my cards and my wallet back. take the 17 bucks if u must u desperate fucker (he even wanted my phone can u believe it?)!

i was tempted to walk arnd interchange looking into dustbins to find my wallet cuz im pretty sure he'd probably taken the 17 bucks and threw my wallet away. im so sad... nvm... my baby will buy me a wallet again...

and ya... on a lighter note, me and marcus bought a camera together. it's a pretty darn cool camera... and so we're sharing it even with his parents... haha! that day we went out for dinner and we all started taking photos... quite fun. haha! and i was teachin them how to use to camera that day... so exciting. a camera for ourselves... finally!

so we have a shared camera and a shared ipod called "marcus<3suelynn">

we brought the camera to the zoo that day. yes. we decided to go to the zoo because... it was just fun. haha! and it was damn cock. marcus unleashed the cock animal side in him. making funny noises and acting like every animal he saw. took alot of photos. fell in love with a lot of cute animals and yeps... ill post all the photos taken in the zoo and the dinner ones up soon... so do look out for them...

till then, thanks for reading this long long long post. but do sympathise with me please. i was so shocked and stunned and argh-ed that i was actually trembling upon realising that the fucker made off with my wallet. RAH!!!! okok... yes i cried if ure wondering. and im still super sad about it... but haiz... life goes on.

ive got more impt things to worry about like 4 projects due in the next 2 weeks and one essay mid term test coming up next wednesday. kill me somebody. kill me!

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excursion of the day to the ... ...

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what's the point? what's the point of bothering now? seriously...

after all the fun uve had... after u got yr time and uve gotten wad u want... now u want this...

haha!

im not a toy...

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here i am in my hostel room.

10 30 pm and i still havent eaten anything the whole day. amazing?

ya...

im depressed.

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if i asked you to hold me tightly even though ure dying, would you?

if i asked you to stay awake and accompany me through the night, just cuz im afraid of the dark, would you?

if i asked you to watch me study through the night, would you?

if i asked you to travel a journey of 4 hours everyday just to see me, would you?

if i asked you to believe in what i believe in, and allow the young ones too, would you?

if i asked you to spend a million dollars on me, would you?

if i asked you to buy me flowers even though you have no more money left, would you?

if i asked you to go shopping with me for a dress even though you have more impt things to do at hand, would you?

if i asked you to wake up in the middle of the night, to cook for me or eat with me cuz im hungry, would you?

if i asked you to sleep beside me even though ure not a single bit tired, would you?

i just hope u would.

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i reali question my worth here in my own life...

do u think my parents actually reali care for me? or do they think im too independent to bother about me?

my frens? ive almost lost them... im so busy that i dun even have time to meet up with them. busy with what? ask me... i wldnt even be able to tell you.

so what if ure nice? who appreciates? who cares?

u noe smth guys? the pple who are willing to sacrifice for you are the ones who reali truly love and care for you.

what's the point of actually saying they care... oh they do love you... but when it comes to doin things... they start thinkin more about themselves and their happiness before yours?

so i can firmly say that nobody in this world loves me enough to put me above their own interest and happiness... it's at times like this i see the truth.

somebody save me? take the crap outta me... kill me if u must. ill write an official will/letter saying that i asked you to... so u wont go to jail... i promise. :)

even if u do have to go to jail... is there anybody out there willing to sacrifice and just kill me please?

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is life always so unfair?

do things always have to work this way against me?

u noe... sometimes i wonder why i try my best to treat pple nicely, as sincerely as possible... but yet all i get is a certain kinda treatment and attitude. is there no space for fairness and equity in this world anymore? is there no space left for sensitivity?

true... ure supposed to do things for pple without asking for anythin in return. but im not exactly demanding any sorta reward or shites like that... all im askin for is some sensitivity... yeps. cant u guys just see it? cant u peeps just understand?

yeps. now it's over for you... and it's just about my turn to start... yet? not a single bit of encouragement or support from you. instead it's all planning to play...

doesnt anybody gif a shite about me...

life sucks... it realli does.

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maybe not so after all...

my darling marcus came down to my place with home-cooked food in tupperwares when i was dying of hunger and was about to cook maggi mee to eat...

wad a pleasant surprise...

yeah... maybe im not so pathetic after all...

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im fucking pathetic ...

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*yawnz*

yet another overnight session. gosh im beat... haha! but i havent done any readings. all ive done is watched the geog lectures that ive missed. haha! well... it's cool cuz they do post up webcast of the past lectures on the learning system thingy... so if u like missed lectures can go there watch... but somehow it has made me not want to go for lectures... haha! terrible... but oh wells... i still have the whole series of south asian ones to watch. dun think ill do that today. enough of information overload. haha!

at least i have my harshbrown and my fries to accompany me... haha! i still have loads of readings to do that i havent done and it reali can drive me nuts. i reali do wonder how i can actually do them all in the time given. yikes... super stressed.

and my poor baby is also struggling and so stressed in front of me studyin for prelims. haha! well... studyin reali sucks. but they say when u go to work u start to miss studyin? sigh... why cant pple just make up their minds...

okok... i think im talkin rubbish already. i cant wait for EPL to start again tomolo... although it was off for one week due to euro 08 qualifiers... it seems like eternity... nvm... man u... pls win tottenham tomolo... oh yah... got interesting stuff to share...

sometimes u some from nice cities but are given horrible city dwellers names:
burbank - burbankers
sydney - sydneysiders
seoul - seoulers
liverpool - liverpootlians
manchester - mancoonians
mumbai - mumbaikers
peking - pekingnese
frankfurt - frankfooters
hamburg - hamburgers
kuala lumpur - kl-lites

cool eh? haha!

im bored...

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it's 5am and im still rotting away in my room... my baby is lying on the bed beside me studyin... haiz... wad a horribly traumatic experience studyin for the a's and prelims is... to all those out there studyin hard for the prelims and long-term wise for a's... all the best and i reali hope u guys can do well. i reali so damn know how tough it is... poor things...

uni life aint too gd too. go down to the common study room of my hostel at like 2am and ud still see pple studyin down there. like it's only the beginnin of semester and everybody's studyin so damn hard oredi. okie basically there are like million of readings to be done. im lagging by like 30 over readings oredi. which is driving me mad... reali mad... damn sianz la... im supposed to be doin readings now but im just... too tired and sianz. cuz i did some just now... *yawnz*

bah... i need a life... im so short of one... reali i am.

i miss my friends... do u guys miss me too?

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ive been slacking in my hostel for like the past... 5 hours? haha! but surprisingly i had so many things to do i wasnt bored at all... print my notes... pack up my notes... pack up my room... haha! there's just so much to do...

well... now im waiting for my food and for my darling... and for my notes n stuff that my baby's bringing over for me... thank goodness Uncle Phillip is sending him here... haha! and i think his mum has been reali nice... although i dun really believe it yet... she keeps giving me light. it's some religious thingy. and she reali takes care of me when i stay over there. reali sweet... and i heard she boiled water chestnut for me to drink and marcus is bringin it here for me... haiz... the wonders of a great mother-in-law... :D

my sister just called me... just got her first pay so dunno how much to give mum and dad... haha! so farnee la... well... i wonder when my first time will be... when ill actually grow up and not depend on them anymore... i dun wanna grow up actually... i wanna remain a kid... actually i just wanna remain a JC student... i reali do... i miss those days. after like a whole darn year, i still miss it...

these few days have been quite bad... no frens in uni yet... so everythin is kinda... sad... i ate alone today at the deck... and it was not very pleasant... haha! sianz...

b... why are u takin so long to get here? bah... i miss you so much...

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England 5 - 0 Andora

hmmm... either andora sucks... or england rocks...
i think it's a mix of both...
andora's possession was like... 1% maybe? goodness... they din even try... Robinson can even abandon his goalpost, run out and play on the big field and they still wldnt score a goal manz. it's really bad... they din even try... oh gosh. and they really are kinda softies eh? they kept fallin down and wad seemed like minor injuries to me wld set them rolling on the pitch in tears... well... i guess it's all part of soccer. cant beat them, yellow-card them... haha! but alright england... u guys rock... Gerrard is fantastic manz... good play there manz... but Terry as captain is so damn disappointing... and poor Hargreaves... hit post twice... haha!

and so... CANON printer sucks... okie... maybe they dont. but wad the hell... i cant get the newly bought canon printer to connect to my PC properly... rah! i really dunno wad to do... and there's no technical support to call or any customer service staff to call cuz they're only open "mondays to fridays, 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. pls try again during those hours. thank you." argh...

my clock's all cuckoo already. haha! really spent the past few nights studyin through... and sleepin in the days... so much so i missed quite a fair bit of lessons... die la... my JC ponning streak is comin back into me... i cant manz... okok... from next week onwards... there shall be no more ponning for me...

ok... lastly going out to my one and only... i love you ya? that's all i have to say... and u noe the depth of those words...

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Currently...

.NUS.
.E-Lang Major.
.Victoria Chorale.
.enjoying my break before year 3 starts

Loves

~ Marcus B
~ DOLPHINS!
~ VJ Choir
~ Victoria Chorale
~ potatoessss
~ KIDS!!! :D
~ my friends
~ singing and music
~ playing the piano
~ watching plays & musicals etc.
~ reading
~ the beach, the waves, the sea breeze
~ the stars, the clouds, the night sky
(im rather easy to please...)

Wants

* to work on speech therapy as a career
* to improve my vocab
* to pick up cantonese
* to pick up malay
* to go on doing theory
* to watch all the musicals in the world
* to learn voice after i finish my licenciate in oral comm
* to improve playin the guitar
* pick up the bass guitar
* to learn drums
* to read as many books as i can

My Shoppin List

$ the new Man U jersey
$ more man u merchandise
$ a new hp
$ the Julia Quinn books that i dun yet have
$ forrest gump OST
$ ABBA gold album

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Filming Day at VJ
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Steamboat at Bugis
Uncle Philip's Bday
Cus' First Pay Cheque
Penang 2007
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Les Miserables
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