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Monday, May 28, 2007

i had a gambling session last night with boys... literally boys... haha! my neighbours who came over to play with my bro... and insisted i be the "zhong" for their blackjack game... so there... i was the "zhong" and the "money" we used was guess wad? ahuh... country erasers... :D

well... dat was last night... to replace the boring night without any soccer matches to watch... :( so yea... it was pretty fun... :D

this morning had to bring my bro and Derek (neighbour boy) to church too... den to lunch... so i was babysitting... sianz... they wanted to eat long john's... so yah...

hmmm... den afternoon went down to Ben's place... suppose to go down to see filming and give him moral support kinda thing? but in the end... he din act... so they were just using his place... so the useless 2 of us just hung arnd... watched Friends for like 2 hours? used his com... took fotos of the filming pple... ate cup noodles... yah... basically slacked the whole afternoon away doing nothing... ahaha! yeps... pretty fun la... his house air con... so lying on the bean bag watchin friends in the air con living room in comfort was shiok-ness! haha! yea... and ben... being dumb... ate noodles that were meant for soup the dry way... amazing? yes... that's ben my buddy for you... :D i dun have fotos... cuz his stupid com and internet is so lousy... i cldnt load them up to anywhere or send them anywhere... the "could not publish page" thingy kept coming up... i gave up... haha!

den after that... we decided to head down to City Hall for dinner... initial plan was HMV to buy my friends... eat dinner... den hang at esplanade library while he returns his books and DVDs... but we met gabriel moo on the train there and we decided to join him and other pple for Hwa Chong concert at esplanade instead... so i was pretty dressed down for the concert... :P haha! oh wells... yea... but i managed to get my friends season 3... so yay! haha! the concert was... okie... entertaining i guess... brought back alot of memories for me... so much so i actually thought of gettin those who are interested in my batch to do a recording of all the songs we sung before... cuz they sang hua xin Hana and For The Beauty Of The Earth today... so really brought back alot alot of memories... yeps! hmmm... after concert was supper time with chorale pple and my batch pple. yea... oh and miss lim sang a solo... which i enjoyed... miss her so damn much... haiz... :S

so that's about all i did today... quite a fun filled day i must say... haha! and interesting things happened... like meeting ben's admirer whom i took the liberty to name "darling"... haha! yea... meeting the "cute" actor... heard some big shot's son mcee and say the word "trumphiant" can u believe it? goodness.... wad a joke it was... and den it was me going "tar-mach" instead of either "tummy" or "stomach"... haha! it was one of those sue lynn moments... when my mind processes one word and out comes another word... it's been happening to me so often... just yesterday pple arnd were talkin about me being lactose-unfriendly... and den the asked me about ice-cream and i said... "yes i eat ice-cream... but the white one i dun... the white type of ice cream...?" and everybody was like "huh????" and i realised i actually processed the word ice cream as chocolate in my head... goodness... i dunno what's wrong with me... haha! i think it's some brain and mouth linkage malfuntion... :P

oh wells... i had a long day... off to bed now... i almost fell asleep while watchin friends at ben's place today... it was so funny yet i could feel my eyes closing... that's how tired i am... :D

always monsteroo 00:13

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

today was rather fun... went out for the "first" time... in millions of days... haha!

morning went down to somerset for lesson... haiz... i have big problems with my pronouns... keep stressing them... gotta start practising on them... and i have lots of stuff to do manz... work that ive been pushing aside with reasons of school... but now holidays i gotta do them manz... have another speech to write up... and a 4000 word thesis project to do... on any aspect of oral communication... maybe ill do body language... that's interesting enough i guess? haiz... i must must must get down to doing them this holidays... or else once school starts i confirm no time one... so irritating... argh....

after that i went to popular to buy baby dumbo toy... but i cldnt find it anymore... so im pretty upset about it... :( haiz... but nvm i guess... i made myself happy by buying other stationery... haha! typical me... hmmm...

oh yah! smth damn weird happened to me... some super weird guy came up to me and actually touched my belt buckle area askin me where i punch my belt holes... i was like??? goodness... the story's too absurd to actually say in words... but basically... it was weird and uncomf... haha!

after that i came home... rushed with some chores and drivin arnd everywhere like a mad taxi driver to run errands... buy lunch for my family... buy tea snacks for the construction workers... send my bro here and there... haha! dat made me late for my lunch with gabriel, lucas and jamie...

and lunch was yong tau foo... haha! yummy... i dunno why i had that craving last night... so i suggested going there and yea... everybody seemed fine... haha! so after lunch went down for chorale... and i really dun like the new song... it sucks... it's worse than In Song... argh... so sianz.. and the english is so... pok... what does "voices twin" mean??? goodness... haha! but i shant complain so much... i wldnt have been able to do a better job... :P

after chorale we went to Bernie's at Changi there to eat dinner... it was pretty fun... hung out with the older pple... yea... and den nice darling Joyce sent me all the way home... so nice right? i was so touched... haha! i shall sms her to thank her once i get her number... heh!

and so... that's my day so far... singing always makes me a happy girl la... yah...

love's it... :D

always monsteroo 00:55

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Friday, May 25, 2007

i really really need my Friends Season 3 VCDs... and i want my dumbo baby soft toy from Orchard... haiz... i need to get out of the house... but i cant... :(

always monsteroo 15:11

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

my house is in a complete mess... argh... i just finished cleaning up the whole place... swept and mopped the whole house... and shifted everything from my room to the other room... so they can work on my room tomorrow... im sweating like a pig manz... so tiring... rah!

anyway... it's funny how spore pools can come up with funny specials like "how many goals will kaka score at full time"... "will steven gerard score?"... "what will the half time score be?"... funny eh? but pretty cool la... hopefully liverpool wins it all at the end... i really wish they be awarded for their hard work this season... and i be rewarded for having faith in them... haha!

anyway... i was sitting on the swing 2 nights ago... when suddenly smth fell and hit the floor right beside my leg... i thought it was a snail from the ceiling or smth at first... but when i moved in closer to look at it... it flew away... and i realised it was a little baby sparrow... so cute... and so adorable... okie... and cuz of that... i decided to buy the number 5529... haha... for "fly fly to-night" haha! okie... i noe it's lame but it's the first number that came to my mind... :)

and last night... there was a small baby froggie hoppin arnd in my house... and after we brought it outside the house and locked up the place... it still managed to find it's way in... since the whole house was already locked up and the alarm was on... i took the food cover and covered it... haha! this morning i found it asleep and the food cover moved from one end of the kitchen to the other... i guess it was trying to escape... haha!

my encounters with baby animals have been rather weird recently... hahah! and my driving has improved... finally... after driving everywhere everyday... out to buy lunch... out to pick brother... out to send bro for tuition... pick him from tuition... my driving and parking has improved manz... which is a gd thing...

last saturday i drove all the way to sembawang to pick marcus up from camp... alone... and the Phantom OST was blasting thru the stereo... fun manz... i love driving... along the whole TPE and SLE... singing along to Phantom songs... alone so can sing as loud and as lousily as i can... haha!

okie... this post was rather crappy but oh wells... im feeling crappy anyway... so full of rubbish and so full of arghies...

always monsteroo 18:34

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

this is for my da jie... an update on the situation of the contruction work at home... :)

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always monsteroo 13:39

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well... i really hate pple who try to gain pity and try to gain sympathy... seriously... i mean... okies... i know ure hurt and everything... the haunting past... the horrible memories and all that... but hey... i think im in more of a position to whine and cry and call out to the world for pity... but hey no. im not even doing that... so i dun even see why ure making yr life out to be so miserable and so pathetic... i dunno manz... seriously... i mean... u telling me stuff only hurt you... oh yes... me finding out stuff from you totally din hurt at all u noe? and i think there shld be some credit given to me for not splashin everything (name and all) out here ya? so really... quit behaving like ure the helpless victim that everyone is against... quit looking for pity and seriously.. quit making yr life seem so damn miserable and pathetic... cuz i think im in a far worse position than you... but im not even making my life half as miserable and pathetic as you are making yours...

i really hate pple who seek for pity the way you are... and it's funny ure putting everyone down just to get the pity you need... seriously... u noe u are no angel... so really... stop it... before everything starts splashing out here... im sick and tired of your stupid whining... i really am... it's really getting so sick that u are the most helpless one here when im the real victim ya?

always monsteroo 13:27

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Monday, May 21, 2007

okie... this is so damn unhealthy...

a bag of oregon original flavoured potato chips in front of me...

a big cup of sweet mango-pineapple cordial drink beside me...

and a baking potato in the oven waiting to be cooked...

haha! wad a pig... and wad a potato pig i am...

simple pleasures :)

always monsteroo 00:15

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

okay... actually im really touched... it's good to know that i have a friend who really cares and who treasures me... im so grateful that i din lose her after that rough patch we went through in that period of time... like... i really appreciate it so much... im so touched i can actually cry... i've never like had a friend do such a thing for me... and like... i dunno... appreciate my presence that much... but im very happy too... haha! hmmm... u noe it really feels good when u come back from a long trying weekend... and to know that someone out there still cares and treasures you... it's really a good feeling... it really is...

hmmm... yea as i said it has been a long and trying wknd... and my whole house is smelling of paint... i swear im gonna become some unhealthy addict soon... haha! whatever happened to that advertisement of those fat sumo wrestlers and nippon paint... odourless and all? it isnt manz... it's very very smelly... it's starting to smell abit like nutmeg oil... (does that mean im getting addicted already? heh!)

well... Man U lost the FA Cup finals... it's sad... they put up a good fight and they missed some very good chances... it's sad... but i think chelsea kinda deserved it... both teams played well... yes im a true fan and supporter of Man U... but im a fan of good soccer too... and yesterday's finals was indeed a good show of English soccer... tops... amazing... i loved it... :) although towards the last few minutes it was... really like... "okie... penalties it is" and i was starting to think of who can take penalties for man u. but just when i was telling myself (and Man U secretly in my heart) "dun lose it... go for it... dun let chelsea do their last minute killer thing"... the ball was chipped over Van der Saar by Drogba... my heart fell to my feet manz... painful... but okie la... good match... i liked it...

i guess all's fair now... man u won the EPL... chelsea takes this FA cup... and i really hope liverpool takes the Champs League trophy home... they've done some really great improvements this season and i think they deserve it... okie... i kinda dun like kaka and milan but... haha! let's hope Crouch makes the first line-up... cuz only when he's in the first line-up does liverpool actually have a chance of winning... not that crouch is dat good... but... it's some luck thingy i guess. haha! hmmm... and i kinda need Liverpool to win the Champs League to cover up some of my betting losses... haha! bought 50 on liverpool being championship winner... haha!

okie la... enough of bullcrap... i just hope that next 10 days go okie for me... i really hope ill cheer up... oh and i really kinda miss hanging out with my friends... namely Jamie... Adrian... Lucas... Gabriel... Ben... oh yah manz...

Jamie let's go out soon... real soon... we havent hung in quite a while... i miss u already... oh and... MAHJONG anyone? please? ill let u guys win more???

P/s: im very amused at somebody's reaction really... like... errr... "okiiiieeezzzzzz" is the first thing i can think of to say... and maybe smth like "stop being so deluded and believe that the whole world is against you... cuz it's probably just you being over sensitive and having yourself against yourself... or a case of self-pity maybe? yah... so go easy on yrself manz... and who's being more 'hypocritical' and 'direct' by doing the blocking thing?"

always monsteroo 22:59

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Friday, May 18, 2007

goodness me... im such a lazy pig... i actually woke up at 1plus today... and at like 4plus i went to sleep all the way till 7plus... and now im still tired... there must be smth wrong for me... haha!

i was supposed to go out and buy things... a lot of things actually... but the lazy bum in me kicked in and... i din go out of the house at all... haiz... wad a disappointment... im starting to regret now... :(

hmmm... i hope this wknd goes well... i hope it goes differently...

actually... it seems like being in a rship may not be the best thing at all... okie maybe generally it makes u happy... as they always say a person in love can be detected from afar by that glow and bliss whatsoever on her face... actually all those who have been in real rships before... i bet u guys would beg to differ right? the obstacles and the hurdles in rships can get so tiring... and so painful... but all we do is hope that at the end of it all we get a brighter future and happiness... and all we can do is hope... becuz we dunno what the future has in store for us...

and ive been awaken to smth in life... that one shld never be too judgemental on pple... especially just on their behaviour... okie if ure judging a person based on a particular some big thing that the person did to you... den okie... judging and hating that person is fine. but when u noe... u just think that person is a little weird... that the person has abstract way of thinking and all... it never is that simple at all deep within that person... it never is. there's always some explanation for it... and i finally found out about a fren i never knew... and i feel quite sad about it... okie maybe not sad... but... i feel... u noe... a heavy aura arnd me since i knew it... but im glad i did...

everybody arnd me seems to be having problems... but i guess this is when the whole bonding thing happens and we start opening up to each other...

it's funny how pple actually try to pretend like nth is happening and put their smiles up for the world to see... but then once in awhile when u slip... pple can actually see the troubles behind that fascade. im actually quite shocked that someone actually mentioned that i actually look quite troubled too... i always thought that when im in front of that group of pple i always try to be happy and lala-ish... but i guess as my darling dawn says... sometimes we just slip...

it's such a crappy long post... i guess im just feeling crappy too... haha!

im outta here...

always monsteroo 19:53

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so today was rather eventful for me... okie... eventful in the sense that... i have been slackin the past 2 days away... so going out is eventful....

even if going out meant to church... haha! yes... i went for Ascension mass by myself... im quite surprised i actually made it a point to go to church alone... haha! well... i was tempted to run away and have a yummy dinner... but the angel side of me took control and yes... i went for mass... and it was good. i find comfort in going to church nowadays... especially when my life is so turmoilish... haha! met up with Alex and Max in church... din expect to see them... but glad we finally caught up... especially Max whom i havent seen in donkey years... :D i miss u guys... we shld meet up soon manz... like really... we have lots to catch up on...

oh and after church i went down to J8 to meet lucas, jamie and dawn... we shopped for make-up at red earth and i shared the buy one get one free thingy with jamie... so i got myself a lipstick for 10 bucks today... i need darker redder lipstick anyway... or else Sandy will just keep killing me... haha!

after that Dawn drove us down to the wake... and yea... we just hung there and chatted till quite late... den home i am...

oh and my cookies... :( i bought subway cookies from J8... wanting to eat them tonight... and i left them in jamie's bag... argh... i miss my cookies...

eventful day... yea... really good for me as an individual... lots to think about...

always monsteroo 00:33

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haha! all i can say is ure such a bitch... i mean... everyone incl the person involved says the same thing "what makes u so sure u were even up to it?" i mean like seriously... were u even expecting anythin? goodness... some pple are just TOO full of themselves... im not being superficial here... but really... did u ever think about it for one second? goodness gracious me... at least i fought for smth i believed in... i din throw myself at anythin or anyone for that matter... neither did i try to use sex to get myself into the picture... so yah... before u think ure all high and mighty... and that im miss unfriendly... think about it yah? just think about it... and stare harder... (gosh im such a bitch... but somehow u asked for it?) i noe im not the nicest person arnd... but at least... i dun behave the way u do... eeeks... i never knew such pple still existed... do smth wrong and act so ya-ya about it... oh please... give me a break.

argh... some pple just get on my nerves... and gets me laughing really... im quite a notti gal... i like to irritate pple who are just so irritating... and i actually succeeded dat nite... HOORAH! i mean... oh goodness... some pple just... eeeeks me outta my own skin....

always monsteroo 00:07

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

hmmm... SOV was fun i must say... i din get to watch the juniors perform... i was backstage instead... but it was my first performance with chorale... and it went quite well i think... it feels good to perform and sing in a choir again... yea... it was great company last night... really great... im startin to love chorale more and more... oh and i tried to master the game Saboteur... i finally understood it... but not good at playin though... haha! well... i shall upload some SOV fotos i took...

i wanna thank those that came down to support us... especially sheena and adrian... yea... and thanks sheena & gracia for pretty orange flower... :D

hmmm... i hope i can step out of the mudpile im stuck in now soon... it's taking me down really badly... im losing myself...

oh and i need a new bag... haha!

here's the link to my other SOV fotos...

http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=2AZOGbFi0cMWWD

and YC's album which has really nice pics...

http://picasaweb.google.com/yinchuin/VC2007SOV?authkey=OAyU5udt8QM

always monsteroo 13:43

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

oh manz... i cant believe ure being such a bitch about it... okie... true... uve always been a bitch... but hey... wad ever was it that made u so deluded into believing that it was even real for a second? gosh... someone tell me... i hate pple who appear to be so nice on the surface... who pple take to be innocent creatures with angel wings and halos... when actually deep within they've got such ugly and unbelieveable thoughts... goodness. i cant believe im even in comparison...

i hate being in this stage where i dun even noe who my real self is... it sucks... it really does... i mean like... even when im smiling and laughing i dun even noe if im really happy? half the time i find myself pushing everythin to the back and laughin... leading days as per normal... when actually at the end of every day i break down like some pathetic idiot....

and yes... ive gotten the "typical" advice from everybody... and when i beg to differ you guys say im deluded... it's funny... i mean... i guess nobody understands really wad situation im in...

someone... pls just kill me... a fast and sudden death will do...

always monsteroo 01:58

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Monday, May 14, 2007

okie... this is specially for my sister... so she knows what the house now looks like under construction... haha!

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always monsteroo 22:59

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argh... my throat really hurts... it feels inflammed and there's blood in my phelgm... im dead manz... SOV's tomorrow. how am i gonna sing this way... better start dousing myself with lotsa "pee pa kao" and honey lemon water... i hate falling sick...

anyway... the wknd was scary... for me at least... and that's all im gonna leave it at... it was scary... it is scary... everything's so scary...

just spoke to simin yesterday... as in my ex classmate from TKGS... we were damn close back then... and yea... she just confused me... actually not that i wasnt confused... but some pple are telling me to follow my heart... some pple tell me to follow my mind... and i myself really dunno what i want... it sucks like hell manz...

haiz... will someone save me?

always monsteroo 12:18

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Saturday, May 12, 2007

u eff-ing disappoint me...

always monsteroo 11:49

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Friday, May 11, 2007

i think forgiveness is my weakness... but yet i cant seem to do anything about it... i can hurt damn badly inside... but yet... i think i tend to forgive really easily... and that sucks manz... haiz...

okie... maybe it isnt that sucky... okie... i really dunno... maybe that's why pple just love stepping all over me...

anyhow... today was fun... it was mother's day shopping... yea... so me and jamie went shopping for our mothers... and other mothers... haha! basically it was only me... i havent gotten marcus' mother's pressie too... so i had to get it... in the end i bought a really nice bag for his mum and a really nice wallet for my mum... quite proud of myself... thank you so much jamie for accompanying me shopping... im glad we settled our pressies already...

after that we met adrian for dinner... and talked... and ate... and den lucas came to join us... and we ate desert... and talked... and den it was shopping again... haha! even the boys bought pressies for their mums... so sweet right? i was quite amused to see them big boys buying what they bought for their mums... haha!

den we all left for home and here i am... bored... and a little tired... but not willing to sleep yet... sucks manz...

nvm... the wknd's coming again... YAY!

so here's some pics i randomly took today at Village (adrian do teach us how to pronounce this again pls??? :P)

my chicken breast and yummy ROSTI :)

lucas u look... sleepy... jamie... u too...

jamie darling and me... with our yummy waffle...

adrian striking a cool "im drinking" pose... haha!

aiyo... wanna laugh just laugh la... "am4 chio3" for wad???

i think they were talkin about some... xia xue thingy?

our yummy waffle looking no-so-yummy anymore... haha!

always monsteroo 00:10

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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

why is it so hard to lead life normally?

haiz... it's getting harder and harder to blog about what i really feel... i feel like my posts are becoming increasingly superficial... but i guess blogging was never suppose to feel real in anyway right?

hmmm... i actually do hate seeing some pple... as in the mere sight of them just makes me feel like puking. but i guess i cant avoid them for life... so i might as well just live with it...

okie... damnit. i feel myself hardening up to the world around me. is this wad they mean by "become stronger"... cuz i feel so weird now... i havent been myself the past few weeks... and that sucks...

i feel like i have alot of problems and i cant deal with them properly...

always monsteroo 22:26

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

congrats to my darling VJChoir... great job done...

so today was a long long day... woke up at about 7... went down to watch syf from like 8 to about 6 plus in the evening? yea... after that was ramen dinner with chorale peeps and tiongy... and den desert at bugis... yeps. so these are the random fotos i took... haha!

tiong and myself - will u be less himbo pls?

myself, hao and marie

uncle yen yu and aunty me

i miss my friends... :)

wad a conincidence... i met my church buddy Jocelyn... working as an usherer there... haha! cute la she...

this is one weird pillar with a painted flower in VCH... look out for it the next time ure there...

yes lucas... so u see yrself now? haiz... wad can i say? it's better than millions of the same shot of the locker right? :P

my rather tasteless desert... i prefer a-ball-ing... but hey... company was great!

always monsteroo 23:41

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Monday, May 07, 2007

and so... this is for my friends out there who cant wait to get the photos... gabriel especially for MSN and friendster purposes (haha!)... here's the link to my fotos ok?

Josh's Bday Party:

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When I Went Back to VJ for filming:

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anyway... these are the tulips that my dad bought for my mum all the way from Amsterdam... so sweet right? tulips... amsterdam... windmills... awwwww... i like... :)

always monsteroo 14:11

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HOORAH! HOORAY! MAN U WON THE EPL TITLE! AFTER 3 LONG SEASONS... THE CUP IS FINALLY BACK IN OLD TRAFFORD!!!

oh yes manz... im so damn happy... i think they totally deserve it... kept their lead in the title chase all the way since the 4th game of the premiership start.... im so damn proud of them... i love them so much... they are a good bunch to watch...

and hail Sir Alex Ferguson... ive never seen a more inspiring and dedicated manager... i love him so much manz... HOORAH!

to all the Man U fans out there... CHEERS! we finally got what we deserve...

always monsteroo 13:48

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Sunday, May 06, 2007

i guess the best way to find out is through neutrality

and so that's how i will be

confusion really sucks

i can only hope God will hear my prayers

always monsteroo 21:07

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Friday, May 04, 2007

therapy and boredom-fillers:
+ Friends Season 1 VCDs
+ Grease VCD
+ Phantom Original Musical Soundtrack
total cost = 75 bucks

im a happy girl...

exams are finally over and holidays are here... i can relax and do whatever i want now... hoorah!

im a happy girl...

man u lost their treble... haiz...

im a sad girl...

im going back to VJ tomorrow with Jamie... and im gonna see her new bangs...

im an excited girl...

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im one confused girl...

always monsteroo 00:30

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Wednesday, May 02, 2007

what do you do when your mind tells you one thing... and your heart tells you another?

im really stuck in a whirlwind... im really confused...

im really in a mess...

and i need someone to help me... i really need someone to help me...

it fucking hurts...

always monsteroo 13:26

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