FOUND TRUE LOVE

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

----- bon voyage -----

i hate bidding farewells... i hate saying goodbyes. den again i think everybody hates it right? this morning i saw one of my closest friends off at the airport... i hated every moment of it... i hated the ride to the airport... i hated the part where she walked off to the gates... and i hated the moment after that... when i was on my way out of the airport... i asked myself... the airport really is a confusing place... pple go there to vent out stress, anger and hurt at the viewing gallery... pple go there to earn money, for their careers... pple go there happy that someone they havent seen in a long time's coming back... pple go there to say farewell to their close loved ones... pple go there to study... pple go there to eat... pple go there to take wedding photos... pple go to the airport for all sorts of reasons... but i totally hated the reason i was there for today. i just wish the day where i go there to pick Jamie up comes soon... i hope she's doing ok...

----- crash -----

accidents on the roads are scary... over the past few days ive been witnessing many accidents... even accidents that occur right before my very eyes where i see the car engulfed in fume right after crashing into the divider and flying few metres forward... and just now on my way back from Sembawang (sent marcus back to camp) i saw an accident too... and i hate it when all i can do is just say a silent prayer for the victims and the families of the victims... and drive on to wherever i wanna go... it makes me wonder if it's a sign for me to start treasuring the pple arnd me more?

----- the mystery of love -----

how do u know u love a person anyway? somehow today i felt love... at least i think it was love... im not sure... as i saw the fear in your eyes when the doctor said he was going to do a scope for you... i felt my heart pounding alot faster and my hands turn cold. as i saw the doctor take out the scope tube... i almost cried. as i saw the way u crunched up your face and clenched yr fist tight when the doctor gave u the nasal anaesthetic... i felt myself clenching up every muscle in my body. as i saw the pain on yr face when the doctor stuck that scope tube up your nose... i felt the tears come to my eyes and i wanted to just go up to the doctor and stop whatever he was doing to you. as i continued watching the way you jerked each time he inserted the tube abit more... i just looked away and wiped the tears that were brimming waiting to roll down my cheeks. as i saw u sitting there helpless and in pain, i just wished i could take your place. is this love? i dont know. but ive never felt like this before.

----- the innocent punished -----

i know of a guy... who's business failed... went into gambling in hope of winning back the losses... but obviously getting into worse debts... this guy has a family. a huge family. a family of 5 children - the youngest being 2+ and the oldest only being 12. in desperation, he turned to the loansharks. after a while... he couldnt return the money and the children faced torture and fear everyday... they came home to splashed paint all over the door... glue stuck in the keyhole... their father's names written all over the void decks. but all they could do was to help to paint over these horrible writings. in hopelessness, he turned to a close family friend for help. and without any hesitation, this friend lent him $35 000 to clear the debts... but still... he never learnt his lesson and continued to gamble. he never stopped. more and more debts came. he borrowed more and more from this close friend. until one day... he stopped borrowing and told the close friend that he would return him the money one day. due to this "rift", the families drifted apart... once close enough to meet up every wknd for dinner... now turned to a situation where a meeting once a year was considered lucky. after 7 years... the man never bothered returning the money to his good friend. before all these happened... the man's kids loved going over to the close friend's house, where they could play all day, run in the garden that their small HDB couldnt allow, eat as many chocolates as they could, and have KFC for dinner. but ever since the whole thing started, such meetings became from rare to never. is it fair that because of their father's misdeeds, they're deprived of the joy? yet again... it seems like things would be awkward if they went to visit their good friend's family... i really sympathise with the kids. maybe one day i will go and visit them.

--- what a day -----

random thoughts interrupting what was supposed to be a beautiful day. sometimes life has unlimited surprises... all u have to do is to expect the unexpected.

always monsteroo 23:39

----- final whistle, game over -----