FOUND TRUE LOVE

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

this is a problem between me and him. why do you have to bother?

i dun need you poking yr nose in all of our issues. i dun need u telling us how to do this, how to do that, how to handle our money, how to discipline my children blah blah blah...

ive tried working things out with you. it's not like i havent. ive tried building smth decent btwn the both of us.

so the last thing i need you doing is spoiling all that. cuz then our lives will be horrible for as long as im with him. and weirdly put, as long as ure with him.

even my parents dun bother about my rships and how i handle certain things... because they KNOW it's NOT FOR THEM TO CONTROL...

so please...

dun irritate me any further...

this is SO NOT THE FIRST TIME ure doing this...

i wanna respect you... i wanna love you... i wanna care for you... i wanna be able to share things with you... i wanna be able to live happily and comfortably with you...

so please... let's not keep doing this....

always monsteroo 02:16

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

secondary school SYF has finally ended... my biggest congrats to all the choirs... for all those that i watched, i thoroughly enjoyed your performances... really i did... im sure all of you are winners in one way or another... who cares about the award? so what if u din get the award u expected? im pretty darn sure that along the way, along the journey which u travelled with your conductor and friends, you learnt alot and went through something that nobody else ever would understand... i believe in the journey... not the result... and i believe that every journey is worth the walk...

my biggest congrats to Miss Lim!!!! seeing u conducting and talking to you again at SYF really brought back a lot of memories for me... one of the greatest of my life... hearing songs that i sang way back in TKGS really warmed my heart... thank you miss lim for inspiring me in choral music... i am here where i am because of you... i am where i am because i love what you've taught me... and if i were given another chance... i'd certainly want to sing under you again... i really do... and yes... of cuz... CONGRATS on the clean sweep of honours... u did it again!!!! hahaha! yup... and of cuz to all the other conductors... i think everybody did a good job... i really enjoyed all the performances i went for... seeing secondary school kids singing on stage, smiling, moving, performing their steps in perfection... it really was awesome...

i want to start singing again... i want to spread this passion and joy of singing to pple arnd me...

always monsteroo 21:00

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i really dun like studying for exams... it's the most dreadful thing to do...

it's even worse for me this sem cuz i know that after exams it just means i gotta start planning to work... or start planning for my future...

the previous sems at least i could tell myself that once it's over i can just relax until bidding for modules start... or until school next sem starts...

but no... not this time...

i really think im gonna miss studyin... especially my friends... jac... russ... yu heng... des... jeremy... sharon... janice... alina... gim... although he's graduating with me too... i really will miss the whole bunch of you guys... having lunches together... just being in school... and most recently being in the library with jac and sharon... haiz...

i dun wanna graduate yet... but i cant... i have to...

i really hate studying... and i hate not having school to go for anymore... i love my friends in NUS... argh... im gonna miss them so much...

ure probably gonna see me hanging arnd in NUS next sem even though im no longer studying there... ill go back and meet them for lunches and all... i must i must i must...

but in the meantime... i need to study and i hate it... all because i dont want school to end...

always monsteroo 20:45

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Saturday, April 18, 2009

there was a time when i'd see emails from "Nus Career Centre".... or like emails with the heading "For graduating students - job opportunities"... and i'd just delete them without even taking a look at the content...

well... now... i cant do that anymore... i find myself more inclined to opening these emails and really looking thru them seriously....

yup... it's scary but true for me... ive gotta start job-hunting...

and im so not looking forward to it...

i hope some kind post-grad course will just accept me... :)

always monsteroo 00:03

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

i currently feel like the most irritated person around...

damn damn irritated... and i dunno what to do to make myself feel better...

argh...

always monsteroo 11:08

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Tuesday, March 03, 2009

it's been raining the whole night and the whole day... so it's really awesome to be lying in bed like a pig... and how fantastic that i was given that chance by this big horrible bad headache that crept into my head this morning... so i ended up missing school... and now im here... lying in my bed resting...

i just realised how afraid i am to miss calls... like just now when my phone wasnt with me for one minute... and i had a miss call... i freaked out... it belonged to a private number so i called my dad, whose number registers as private, and asked if he called... when he said he din... i freaked out even more... haha! u see... to me, a missed call means a missed opportunity... i know it sounds kinda stupid... but i always feel like after being VP of chorale... my phone has to be with me and answered to 24 hours every day... haha! what if someone wants smth big for chorale and called... and i didnt pick up... den we wld have missed it... haha! yup... some pple just call this OCD... :(

but anyhow, that private number called again 2 minutes later and it turned out to be jude... haha! so yea... u see... it IS chorale-related... i wasnt thinking too much... haha! so he said that he's boarding the plane in 5 mins... and that he will be in obama-land for 1 week... of cuz adding that he has ald instructed his officer to post us the dvd and photos... haha! that was the impt part... i hope it reaches us soon... :)

si ying darling asked me to write a message from the VP for the newsletter... and so i thought about it for awhile and just wrote smth short... but writing it made me really really really miss korea even more... i really miss the way everybody was just together... i miss the meals we had together all the time... i miss how it was just US, VICTORIA CHORALE, and nobody else... i miss how we were happy together... i miss how we sang together... i miss how we laughed and played on the bus... i miss how we ate and drank on the last night... i miss how we looked after each other... i miss how we woke up and slept together... i miss everything... i really miss korea... it's been too long a time since i had a trip with any choir... germany was my last trip... and it was awesome... now korea's my last trip and it is as awesome... haiz... as im writing this i feel this weird feeling in my heart and it's kinda creeping up on my back... im not exaggerating... i dunno if anybody feels the same way i feel about korea and chorale... but i dun care... i just feel this way...

maybe it's the rain and the post headache syndrome... but oh wells... my one week break's ending... it wasnt so much of a break for me... but yup... back to school tmr... it's the 2nd half of the semester... my last semester... and yes... i still have no idea what to do yet... :p

always monsteroo 16:17

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Sunday, March 01, 2009

i decided to ask a question slightly before an afternoon nap...

me: how would you create an entire world on your own? meaning you were God and can re-create the whole human system and planet Earth?
he: everybody will live for 200 years, and at a certain point in time they wld stop growin old... i wld be a king and everybody else would be peasants...
me: then how about me? where would i be if you were the king?
he: you... you be the girl who put the fireworks in your face one lor...

apparently he said he was ald half-dreaming by then... :)

always monsteroo 23:04

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Thursday, February 26, 2009

today was fun... really fun... and i seriously have you dudes to thank for it... asik, ben, jianhao, nicholas... and of cuz marcus... i think i havent done smth liddat since what? JC days? yea... possibly... hanging with choir buddies... reading... studying... talking cock... seriously... really very very very fun today...

of cuz what made it even more fun were the classic-asik moments... the ben-cool-funky-sketching moments... the hopeless-nicholas-elvis-presley-sketching moments... the jianhao-horrible-terrible-disgusting-sketching moments... the all-the-dudes-falsettoing moments... the slumdog-millionaire-second-time-watching moments... all that and more... just everything... i really had fun... we shld do it again...

so what was supposed to be a Johor day trip became a Cathay hang day... :D so our trip to Penang in July HAS TO MATERIALISE!!!!!!! shopping, good food, good company... ahahaha! i honestly cant wait... so chorale darlings... keep the first week of July free ok... Penang here we come...

honestly i feel really bad about Mr Jude Oh... ive missed all his 5 calls in the last 3 days... but hey... it's really not intentional... just that he always calls when my phone's not by my side or when it's really inconvenient to pick up... i hope he doesnt think im being rude or smth... really hope not... but at least i got to apologise today when he called jianhao after miss-calling me twice... im not sure if he understood my sorry's and explanations though... sometimes i dun even know if he understands anything im saying over the phone... i think i really want to learn Korean soon... it's a cool language... hahaha! after all... i may actually be more successful in Korea than i am here... HAHAHAHA!

ive got an exco, musico meetin tmr early at 10am... hopefully it turns out as effective and smooth-sailing as exco meeting that day... which reminds me... ive got lotsa stuff to photocopy for the meeting tmr and i havent... shit... what time does the market photocopy shop open manz... i guess it means an earlier morning for me tmr...

okay... goodnight... im really tired... i slept like 3 hours last night... 6am to 9am... today extremely long day... which was unproductive for my studying... but terribly productive for my fun therapy...

let's do this hang and study thingy more often... :D

always monsteroo 23:50

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